I feel the dance inside me since always. This urge to express with movement something nonobvious, to break through my being with my body outside of the framework of physical movement from point A to point B, seems to have been here from the womb.
© Vesna Mačković
Kazuo Ohno, one of my first dance idols and inspirations, later in my adulthood only confirmed my thoughts on expressing oneself by movement and dance. He, as a performer who has in his dance performances transformed himself into a dancer Antonia Mercé y Luque, explains what was behind applying a mask on stage and the artistic expression through dance movements before an audience. It is simply return to origin of our being, a touch with that something from which we were born from both physical and metaphysical.
“My intention in dressing as a woman onstage,” he said, “has never been to become a female impersonator, or to transform myself into a woman. Rather, I want to trace my life back to its most distant origins. More so than anything else, I long to return to where I have come from.”15 In this statement, the origin of his dancing in the inspiration La Argentina gave him is confounded with the origin of life itself in the womb. The counterpart of Valery’s totalizing rhetoric in Ohno’s discourse is the trope of the universe as a symbol of the womb. “I think frequently about the myth of the creation of the universe. I am obsessed with the universe as though I have to think of everything in terms of the universe: the colossal universe, and the opposite world: the uterus of my mother.”
Another Ohno’s statement complements the strength of the longing for dance expression.
Još jedna Ohnova izjava dopunjava jačinu žudnje za plesnim izražavanjem.
…when he first performed Admiring La Argentina in New York City in 1985, Ohno said, “Where is my arena of dancing? I resolved to dance in the womb of my mother.”
(quotes from Dance Chronicle, The Dancing Gaze Across Cultures: Kazuo Ohno’s Admiring La Argentina, Mark Franko, Published online: 18 Mar 2011.
And that’s why I’m here. I go forward so that I can go back.